i just finished going through my fisheye pictures. it brought back memories. alot of memories. i thought to myself, what am i doing to myself? why am i killing myself over this little thing when i can be out there enjoying whats waiting for me. to be honest, my relationship with jac was just merely a fling. i fell in love with the girl i felt most comfortable with and closest with. i also fell in love with her long wavy hair which smelt so damn good. but now is now, i give up on the past. i dont want to correct it, change it, or erase it. i just want to go on from here. im going to call her as soon as she reaches singapore.
her hair smells like heaven. her lips taste so sweet and tender. i actually de-virginized her lips. it felt good. it really did. i think im falling in love again...

i give up on the past. i give up on her.

rick.